My Weight Loss Journey

A loss is a good start

2012-01-09T15:04:00.003+11:00

I had a loss - not as big as I was hoping, but my aim is to lose each week, so I achieved that. I am now sitting at 92.1kg. Had an awesome week - worked out the most I think I have ever, so I am really proud of that.

I stuck to my points, need to really check my snacking though, I am sure I am eating a few more than I am meant to each day :( Hoping for a really good loss again this week.

My goal is to be 88kg before the end of the month, so that is still achievable.

I am having a hit of tennis tonight with a few friends, so that will be interesting :)

I'm Back... as a 90's girl :(

2012-01-07T21:49:00.004+11:00

My goodness - it has been well over 2 years since I last posted and I am sitting here in tears because not a damn thing has changed. :( If only I had stayed focused I would have easily been at my goal now!!!

I am sitting at 93kg - yep I am back in the 90's and feeling so upset and disgusted with myself!! I have been doing great with my exercise for the past 2 years, obviously nothing with my food! What really upsets me is that for 2 years, even though I have not lost weight (actually gained), it has consumed my life!!!

Here I go again, by saying " I am back into it"..... I need to be!! I am really unhappy at the moment. I am actually looking chubby/fat, my clothes are not fitting, I have the worst "muffin top" I have ever had... just not happy!! Plus I am OBESE!!

2012 is my year, no use talking about it, as I always talk - it is time to make it happen and prove to myself that I can do it and that I am worth it.

So many reasons to get to goal this year!!

1. I need to be healthy for my gorgeous boys!

2. I have promised myself that I will sponsor a child when I get to goal

3. I have a gym membership and a pool membership - so NO excuse!

4. My mum has shown me that life is worth living - if she can give up alcohol and cigarettes, I can give up junk food!!!

5. I have a full suitcase under my bed of clothes that will "fit me oneday", I am going to get into those clothes this year!

I am going to get back to blogging regularly :)

Wow, I am back - this is my year. A slimmer Natasha is here. My goal is to see a loss each week - I can do that :)

2009-11-16T11:55:00.003+11:00

Great weigh in this morning. I have lost 1.1kg so i am now 87.8kg. I am super happy!!!

I am actually not really doing Weight Watchers anymore. I gave up meetings a few months back, wasn't inspired, leader was hopeles... Anyway I am basically just eating healthy and eating less. WW has taught me all about portion sizes so I am putting it all into practise without actually counting points. It is working so far. Don't get me wrong, I think WW is an awsome program...I just need a little break from counting points :-)

I have realised that I want be 80kg before Christmas, but if I was to under 85kg, I will be really happy. Going to get my hair done when I get to 85kg, so that will be a nice little reward.

I am a single mum for the week. Damien has taken about 60 year 6 kids away on camp - poor guy!! We will be fine at home, the kids keep me busy and it is actually an awesome TV week this week, so I am happy!

2009-11-04T13:18:00.003+11:00

well, well, well. It has been a little while since I have blogged. Maybe 4 months???? Well in that time I have gained a few kilos. Now 89.2kg. Haven't been too bad, just haven't been focused.

Oh - this is a recent pic of me with my little man Harris!!!!

I guess I have lost sight of the big picture a little bit. I am now getting some good compliments, I am fitting into "normal" clothes and I am feeling SO much better. I think I have just became a little too complacent!

I am still obese!! I started out doing this journey so that I can have a long and happy life with my boys, SO I need to keep losing weight! :-) My ultimate goal is 65ish?? Not really sure - I think when I get closer, I will know.

I really wanted to be 80kg before Christmas, it is do-able???? JUST - MAYBE?? Anyway, I am going to give it a damn good shot!

Well, better be off. Swimming lessons soon, speech therapy soon, water aerobics soon, aaaahhh - Wednesdays are just crazy!!!

2009-07-01T20:54:00.003+10:00

well, I had a loss this morning of 1.5kg!!! I am now 86.2kg. The number is slowly going down! The loss was a little undeserved as I haven't really done anything this week. Didn't really stick to my points, did hardly any exercise. The WW fairy is obviously being very nice to me. Thank you!!

We are off to Hamilton Island in less than a week. I am so excited. Getting a little stressed as nothing is organised,etc.. Put I really can't pack anything yet. I am obviouly not tracking whilst I am on hols, but I am going to try and be "goodish"!! I would love to come back staying the same - or maybe a TINY gain!!! My aim is to have a great week this week, to make up for the following week :-)

I checked my BMI this morning, I am still obese!!! That doesn't bother me, it just shows me that I have come so far (almost 40 kgs lost since starting WW), but I still have a little way to go. I now have less than 20kgs to loss. I know that to some that may sound a lot, but I started this journey with about 65kg to loss - so less than 20 is awesome!!

Fingers crossed for a good week!!

2009-06-17T13:42:00.002+10:00

well, another tiny loss this week. I lost 200grams. It is actually better than I deserved. I keep promising myself that i am going to get back into it - but I have been lying to myself. Well I am really back into it today!! No more excuses!!

I do have a new goal weight though - originally I though 68kg. But my goal now is to stop when I feel beautiful and confident!! I am guessing that will probable be around 70kg, but I really can't put a number on it yet.

We are off to Hamilton Island in exactly 3 weeks!! Yay!! I was hoping to be 80kg before then, not going to happen!!! Maybe I could be 84kg?? Anyway - 3 amazing weeks coming up I think!!

Better go, a million and one jobs to do :-)

2009-06-10T13:51:00.003+10:00

well, i have surprised myself - I did actually have a loss today. It was a small loss (400gms), but I really deserved a gain - so a loss is awesome!!! I am now 87.3, the smallest I have been in at least 7 years!!! I tried my suit on the other day, I last wore it when i went for my department interviews towards the end of 2002 - it is now too big!! yay!!

I am back into it - feeling great today. I am obviously getting comments about how much weight I have lost - I got some more today at playgroup. I am actually finding it a little uncomfortable. I am use to being the fat girl that never got compliments, that just sort of hung around in the background. Don't get me wrong, I am loving the compliments I just need to accept them rather than just brush them off :-)

I have decided not to go to the slimmers club anymore - it really isn't me!! I need encouragemnt if I gain weight, not a fat sash!! I am doing okay on my own, just need to stay focused!

2009-06-09T21:42:00.005+10:00

Well, it has been a few weeks since I posted. The weeks have just got away - doing nothing in particular - just crazy mum stuff. I have been losing the last few weeks, not huge numbers, but i am down to 87.7kg. I have to weigh in tomorrow, and I am predicitng a small gain.

I have just lost focus the last 3 weeks or so. My exercise is still pretty good, but I am not tracking, just snacking all the time. Basically not following my points at all!! I am not really sure why - I have a million and one excuses, it has been cold, it has been raining, I have had a few parties, .... all a load of rubbish!!! I now need to remember why I am on this journey. i am here so that I can be around for my boys for a long time! I think because I have started fitting into some smaller clothes and the fact that i am buying clothes from a "normal" shop - I have kind of eased off a bit. But the fact is I am still obese!!!

So I am back into it!!!

Anyway this is a photo off me from the other night - weighing 87.7kg!! I promise that isn't a white bra that you can see through my top - it must be the flash :-) I went to a friends 30th. I was actually VERY undressed compared to many others, but I felt good! I was wearing clothes from a "normal" shop! I was also wearing heels, and I wasn't scared the heel was going to snap under my weight. I actually think I have lost most of my weight in my face and across my shoulders area, hence the reason for having 2 photos on here :-)

Oh - I started going to Wagga Slimmers Club (only been once). It is not my thing!!! VERY old ladies, very old fashioned views. You pay a fine if you put on weight, wear a pig sash if you have gained, etc.. Anyway, I will go again tomorrow night - I am willing to go for a few weeks to give it a chance. i am so scared though that I will have to pay a fine tomorrow night on my 1st official weigh in!!

Yay - I am an 80's girl!!!

2009-05-13T21:19:00.004+10:00

Yep - I am now an 80's girl - 89.4kg!!! I am super duper happy!!! Considering this week I have had Mother's Day and my birthday, and I have still lost over 1kg. Yay for me!!! It makes up for my gain last week.

I am feeling awesome, loving all the compliments I am getting. Actually, the only thing I am not loving is the saggy skin that is starting to develop!! But at the end of the day, I am healthier and I have an amazing husband who is going to love my saggy skin!! At least I will be able to "tuck" it all in :-)

I have a tough 2 weeks coming up. We have Damien's 30th!! We have a dinner next Tuesday and a lunch on the Saturday. So even a small loss on those weeks will be great!!

Yay - can't stop smiling. Oh - this is a photo from Mother's Day wearing the beads Conrad made for me - very cute!!! The jumper is actually a little bit big, it was small last winter :-) I weigh 89.4kg here
-xxx-

A gain!!!!! So no I am not an 80's girl yet....

2009-05-06T14:00:00.002+10:00

VERY disappointed this morning!! I had a gain! Only my second gain in my WW journey. I gained 400 grams, not much I know, but I actually didn't deserve a gain. I have had a pretty good week. I have been over my points a few days, but i have also exercised hard!

I think my previous 2 weeks where i have had a loss and didn't deserve them has caught up with me!! So, I am a little deflated, feeling a little sorry for myself... but it is a new week and hopefully I can see a loss next week.

I was thinking this morning that my only 2 gains have both come at critical times. The first gain was when I was 100.2kg and a loss would have put me under the 100kg mark, and this time when all I needed was a tiny loss to put me into the 80's. ?????

Anyway, I have been amazing, I am healthier and happier so I need to get over this gain and work hard for next week!!!

Well I am off to take Conrad to swimming lessons in a minute. I have to go by myself this week with all three boys as Damien has a late meeting. Wish me luck!!

Mother's Day on the weekend - I am very excitied. It never really meant much to me, but now that I a mum, I LOVE Mother's Day!!! :-)

2009-04-29T09:26:00.002+10:00

well I am a little blown away - I lost another 1.0kg this week!!! i am over the moon, now weighing 90.3kg. BUT I actually didn't really deserve a loss this week. I have been good with my exercise, but I have snacked a lot and been over my points most days. Obvioulsy I have exercised enough!!! So I am pretty stoked this morning. I am SO close to being an 80's girl.

I really want to start seeing myself as a thinner person!! I still look in the mirror and see the same person as I was when I was 140kg!! I know I look a little bit different - I just need to get a little more confidence happening! :-)

We have a few huge weeks coming up food wise. We have my birthday, Mother's Day, Damien's 30th, a few other birthdays and morning teas. I am really hoping that I can be strong!!

Well, best get ready to take these boys to playgroup! We have a technician coming at lunch to fix the x-trainer - the damn thing snapped at the arm bit!! It is only about a month old as well!! Lucky it is still under warranty!!

2009-04-24T10:24:00.006+10:00

I haven't been posting for a little while now, but I have still been on track!!! I am now 91.3kg!!! Yep -I am nearly an 80's girl. To be perfectly honest, I didn't really believe I could do this - I wanted to, but I truly just thought to be under 100 is enough! No way!!! I am determined to get to goal - 68kg!!

I actually saw my mum the other day - she looks very sick still and very old!! She is only 47 but seriously looks maybe 60!!! It breaks my heart knowing that she has done this to her own body by not looking after it. I am not going to do the same :-) My goal at the start of the year was to be 90kg for Mother's Day. This is the BEST present I can be giving my 3 amazing boys!! A mum who is healthy and happy! I think I can make that goal.

I am now looking at clothes in the "normal" section - something I have not been able to do for a very long time!! I have a pair of jeans that are size 16 - I think they are a big cut, but still - the tag says 16!!! I am not normally one to like attention and praise, but I am loving all the comments I am getting from people about my weight loss.

I have had days, especially over Easter, where I have just eaten and eaten. But the great thing is the following day I am back into it. :-) We are off to Hamilton Island at the start of July, and even though i wont be wearing a bikini, I know I am going to be feeling great. For starters, I know I will be able to fit on the plane!!! When we went to America a few years back, I couldn't do that! I needed to have an extender strap but I was too proud and embarrassed to ask for one, so I had the MOST uncomfortable flight ever!!

I am doing this for my boys and I am so proud of my achievements!! -xxx-

**** this is a picture of my beautiful family at Easter**** I will put a full length shot of me on here very soon!!

2009-02-11T13:09:00.002+11:00

Weighed in this morning, I have lost 500 grams. So I am now 102.3kg. I am almost back to the weight that I left WW at a few months ago!!! I was hoping for a bigger loss as I did exercise a fair bit this week, but it has also been a bit of a wake up call!!! I have stuck to my points, okish! - BUT i have snacked without writing down the points or even thinking about it really.

So, it shows me that I need to get right back to basics and track everything!!!

My mini goal was to be 98kg by the end of Feb. Not sure if that is going to happen, but I might get close. My next goal the is to be 90kg before Mother's Day. I really need to stay focused for that to happen.

I have been looking through other people's blogs from WW - some people have done an amazing job and look so much better and younger after losing the weight!

2009-02-04T14:20:00.005+11:00

Well, I am back!!! I have had a little baby boy, just 2 weeks ago - Harris Campbell is perfect! So, now, no excuses!!! I have been doing WW for 1 week now. I am doing it online as firstly, I cannot really afford meeting, and secondly I really don't have the time for meetings. I have given myself 3 months online, and then I will reassess if I need the meetings.

I had a big loss this week. I lost 3.6kg - I am obviously very happy, but I know it wasn't all me. I have been pretty good this week, but a lot of that loss would have been fluids, etc from the pregnancy. I am definately taking the loss though!!

I have started walking the dog again of a morning time, that is really my only form of exercise for a while until I totally recover from the caeserean.

It is all about my 3 beautiful boys - I want to be a great mum!! A mum that is around for a very long time. I am determined to do it!!

2008-12-10T20:24:00.004+11:00

Well, it has been a while since I last posted!! I am now 33 weeks pregnant - definately our surprise baby!! It has bought Weight Watchers to a huge hault!! My plan was to still do WW whilst pregnant and eat healthy, etc,etc....

I am really disappointed in myself!! Somedays I have great days, but on the whole I haven't been treating my body or this new baby nearly as good as I should be!! I have eaten junk like anything - did very little exercise. It is the "old Natasha" back alright! Excuses after excuses!!!

For these last few weeks of the pregnancy i really want to be as good as I can be - back to tracking and taking this seriously! Taking life seriously! I had a little "life moment" the other day. It really affects me when healthy people die of cancer (Jane McGrath, Kerryn McCann). I realise that we can be taken at any time for no reason - nothing we can do to prevent it. So I am now determined to do EVERYTHING I need to do so that my life doesn't get taken from me from something that could have been prevented! I am looking after this precious body from now on!!

The "new Natasha" is here!

Being overweight is hard, losing weight is hard. Chose your hard!!!

2008-05-20T13:06:00.003+10:00

well, I am a 90's girl!!! YAY for me!!! This is an absolutely amazing feeling. I lost 1.3kg last night so I now weigh 99.0kg. Wow!! i seriously cannot stop smiling.

I know I said a VERY long time ago that I would never hit that 100kg mark (and obviously i did!!), this time I mean it when i say i will NEVER be 100kg again!!! My next mini goal is now to be 90kg, along the way i will actually weigh less than Damien!!! :-)

I must get Damien to take a full length photo of me one of these days soon!!

Yay, I am so proud of myself!!! I am actually starting to think like a "thin" person!! I get guilty when I have few too many lollies, etc. Not because I "think" I should be guilty, but because I truly know that they are providing nothing substantial for my precious body!!! LOL - listen to this "new Natasha", where did she come from???

My goal is to be 98kg at the end of May, if I have a good week this week I should definitely meet that goal.

I don't often feel "pretty" but I actually did this night!!! So of course I had a photo taken!!! I think you can actually tell I have lost weight. I now have a neck!!!

-xxx-

2008-05-12T20:16:00.003+10:00

well - i am just gutted!!! I had a gain tonight, it was 100grams. I know that doesn't sound much but today is my birthday!!! I had my very first gain on my birthday! What makes it really hard is that I truly, honestly don't believe that I should have gained weight. I have stuck to my points and have exercised every day!!! I did 3 seperate workouts today - on my birthday!!!

Anyway - I have cried, now i just need to get over it! It is a brand new week and I am determined to get under that 100kg mark next week!!! This definitely isn't going to stop me achieving my goal - a little bump along the way and that is all!!!

-xxx-

2008-05-05T20:35:00.002+10:00

I am just blown away!!!! I lost 2.6kg tonight at weigh in!!! yep - 2.6kg in one week!!! I had a great week - but I really didn't do anything different to normal. I think my body is just giving me an extra reward for my birthday and Mother's Day!!!

We decided last week that we are moving to Wagga at the end of next month. I am determined to keep focused on this journey through out all the packing, etc.... I am just hoping that I can get a great leader in Wagga.

-xxx-

2008-05-01T13:12:00.004+10:00

well - today was just amazing!!! At playgroup today, a lady that doesn't come very often came over to start chatting as if she didn't know me (I have met her a few times). Once she knew the boys names, she clicked and recognised me. She said I "look different" today - I didn't think too much of it. I just said I was tired!! She then came back a bit later - and said "I know what it is" - "have you lost a fair bit of weight". OMG - I cannot believe that she didn't recognise me at 1st because of my weight loss!!! Unbelieveable!!!

It only gets better!!! A little bit later another mum (who is just lovely!!) told me that i am looking amazing and wanted to know what my secret was!! She said she noticed a few weeks back that i had lost some weight but didn't want to say something in case she offended. She is also a larger lady and said that because I am looking so good, she is also going to start coming to Weight Watchers with me on a Monday. Can you believe it -I have inspired someone to lose weight!!! Honestly, I am just blown away!!!

I cannot stop smiling!!!!
-xxx-

2008-04-29T08:17:00.003+10:00

Another week gone, another weigh in done. I lost 0.9kg last night. This is great as we were away in Canberra for 3 days. My goal was always to be 100kg for my birthday. This is still achievable for me (JUST!!). I have 2 more weigh ins before my birthday and I need to lose 2.8kg. This is a biggish ask - but i am going to stay focused this week and hope for the best!!!

Wow - to be under 100kg, that is going to be great!!! My BMI is going down every week, I am only obese now!! I started morbidly obese, so soon I will just be overweight!!!

Still loving my new meeting! The leader is very nice and actually gets to know us personally.

Hoping for a GREAT week -xxx-

2008-04-26T20:55:00.003+10:00

well - we have just returned from 3 days away in Canberra. Had a great time. The weather was fabulous and Conrad had a blast playing with his cousins!! This was also my 1st weight watchers challenge. Just wanted to say that I THINK I have passed with flying colours!!! I ate pretty well. One the 1st night there we went to the club for dinner. Everyone was having deep fried stuff - pretty much the only thing on the menu. I had the sald bar, and literally only ate some salad, oh, and some fruit for dessert.

I even went the gym at the motel. I woke up at 6:00 both mornings and went to the gym. The "old Natasha" definately would not have done that!!! I had a quick peak at the scales tonight and they look promisinig - so hopefully on Monday I will have a good loss. -xxx-

2008-04-22T16:01:00.000+10:00

Well, weighed in last night. Lost 1.7kg!!! I am SO happy with that. I now have only 1.9kg to lose and then I have lost 20kg!!! Now - that is pretty impressive. I did well last week, ate my correct points and exercised most days, so I definately did deserve my loss.

I started a new meeting last night as my other one closed down. I actually really liked the leader - she was great. She made it very personal. I only knew one other person there from my old meeting, but everyone seemeed very friendly!

I am off to Canberra in 2 days -this is my first WW test. I think I am going to do alright. I am taking my own breakfasts and snacks - so I should be pretty good. Caught up with a girlfriend today that I haven't seen for a few months - she could really notice that I have lost some weight (she didn't know I was doing WW). I have actually inspired her to try harder as well. :-)

2008-04-20T19:35:00.000+10:00

Well, today is my first day of blogging - something very new for me :-) I have been doing Weight Watchers for 14 weeks now -I am actualy so proud of myself. Proud for actually sticking to something, proud because I am trying and proud because it is working!!! I have lost 16.4kg so far. I know there is lots to go - but i have started my life to become a healthier and happier person.

I have stuck to my plan pretty well. I am definately doing more exercise than I ever imagined. I am also eating healthier. I am just so excitied firstly to get below 100kg, and then to get to 65kg.

So far, so good.......... -xx-