OMG OMG OMG!!
Well, I never ever thought I would be sitting here saying that I have put most of my weight back on!! :( I remember reading/hearing?? a while ago that a large amount, 80%??? of people that lose weight will put it back on - I seriously thought, how??? You lose weight, you keep it off = easy.
I am back at 103kg. The number is terrible, back to 3 digits, back over 100, but what is even worse is that I promised to never be back over 100. I never make promises, so I am so disappointed that I have broken it. I have lied to myself, lied to my amazing husband and lied to my boys.
Being over 100kg is not just a number, I am feeling so depressed all the time, I am always tired, I have little interest in sex, I am feeling very anti social, I am feeling inferior, it really is affecting my life.
There really is nothing I can say, I always talk and never "do". It really is time that my actions speak louder than words.
I am no longer doing weight watchers, although I am sure I will always "be counting points". I saw a dietitian a few months back, listened to her for a week, and since then have not given a stuff - but I now give a stuff. I need to. So I am going to be following her plan, and I am going to be losing weight!!!
I am hoping my close friend Sarah will do this journey with me. We are at the same weight, similar life styles, so it will be nice. Also a bit of friendly competition will be good.
I am not going to make some big statement to be 80kg for Easter, etc... I have done that forever and have failed. I really do just want to lose every week -how awesome would that be.
Braxton (5 years) has been telling me lately that I am fat. I know he is just a kid, but I do not ever want my boys to be embarrassed of my size, so it really is time to fix me!!! To become happy, to become a better mum, to become a better wife and be the person I really want to be.
