Why am I doing this?????

Well, I have finally decided to start a blog....

I guess the 1st thing I must tell you all is why I am doing this weight loss journey..I have always struggled with my weight - was a "chubby" child and "chubby" through high school. I did manage to lose a lot of weight in Year 11 and 12, simply by not eating!! (definitely wouldn't recommend that!!). I have always known that I have been big and have always had trouble finding "nice" clothes to wear - but nothing has really made me focused in losing the weight. I guess, I was never out of breath, could still do everyday things, etc...

The start of this year(2008) things changed...my mum became very ill - they didn't think she was going to make it. She is just 46!!! She has been an alcoholic for a VERY long time and her liver is failing. I have always been on my high horse and told her to stop drinking etc!!! Well, at the start of this year I was so cranky that she was about to die and leave behind 6 children and 6 grandchildren!!! That is when i had my "lightbulb" moment... I am also killing myself with food and I am only 26.Well...that was the start of my journey. I joined Weight Watchers on the 7th of Januray 2008 and I am now losinig all my weight, for me and for my amazing boys who deserve to have their mum here for a VERY long time!!!

This is my journey.......

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

wow, nothing has changed!!! I could copy and paste my previous post!! :( You know, I am not sitting here upset, even though I am 104kg, I am really cranky today.

Really cranky that I am still going on about the same stuff, cranky that I haven't cared enough to change, cranky that I am no longer trying to lose weight to benefit my boys.
Just cranky!!!!

I read a new quote today:
"Act or Accept"  

so true, I am accepting who I am, I dont like it, but I am accepting it.
I need to act!!! Simple as that.

I really cant say much else, I just need to do. I am sicking of saying the same things over and over, Damien is sick of hearing the same things over and over!!


 This was me about 9 years ago, NEVER EVER want to go back there again!!! Slowly I am though :( so i need to fix that!!