Why am I doing this?????

Well, I have finally decided to start a blog....

I guess the 1st thing I must tell you all is why I am doing this weight loss journey..I have always struggled with my weight - was a "chubby" child and "chubby" through high school. I did manage to lose a lot of weight in Year 11 and 12, simply by not eating!! (definitely wouldn't recommend that!!). I have always known that I have been big and have always had trouble finding "nice" clothes to wear - but nothing has really made me focused in losing the weight. I guess, I was never out of breath, could still do everyday things, etc...

The start of this year(2008) things changed...my mum became very ill - they didn't think she was going to make it. She is just 46!!! She has been an alcoholic for a VERY long time and her liver is failing. I have always been on my high horse and told her to stop drinking etc!!! Well, at the start of this year I was so cranky that she was about to die and leave behind 6 children and 6 grandchildren!!! That is when i had my "lightbulb" moment... I am also killing myself with food and I am only 26.Well...that was the start of my journey. I joined Weight Watchers on the 7th of Januray 2008 and I am now losinig all my weight, for me and for my amazing boys who deserve to have their mum here for a VERY long time!!!

This is my journey.......

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

well I am a little blown away - I lost another 1.0kg this week!!! i am over the moon, now weighing 90.3kg. BUT I actually didn't really deserve a loss this week. I have been good with my exercise, but I have snacked a lot and been over my points most days. Obvioulsy I have exercised enough!!! So I am pretty stoked this morning. I am SO close to being an 80's girl.

I really want to start seeing myself as a thinner person!! I still look in the mirror and see the same person as I was when I was 140kg!! I know I look a little bit different - I just need to get a little more confidence happening! :-)

We have a few huge weeks coming up food wise. We have my birthday, Mother's Day, Damien's 30th, a few other birthdays and morning teas. I am really hoping that I can be strong!!

Well, best get ready to take these boys to playgroup! We have a technician coming at lunch to fix the x-trainer - the damn thing snapped at the arm bit!! It is only about a month old as well!! Lucky it is still under warranty!!

3 comments:

CinnamonJayne said...

You're doing so well. You can do this. You're going to be an 80s girl at your next weigh in. I'm so so proud of you.

Kathiej said...

Hope the x-trainer gets fixed
then again maybe not .. I HATE those things ....lol

Be strong, you cna get thru the food times.. I believe in you

Natasha said...

thanks again for all your encouragement!! It really means a lot to know that people believe in me!!
-xxx-