Why am I doing this?????

Well, I have finally decided to start a blog....

I guess the 1st thing I must tell you all is why I am doing this weight loss journey..I have always struggled with my weight - was a "chubby" child and "chubby" through high school. I did manage to lose a lot of weight in Year 11 and 12, simply by not eating!! (definitely wouldn't recommend that!!). I have always known that I have been big and have always had trouble finding "nice" clothes to wear - but nothing has really made me focused in losing the weight. I guess, I was never out of breath, could still do everyday things, etc...

The start of this year(2008) things changed...my mum became very ill - they didn't think she was going to make it. She is just 46!!! She has been an alcoholic for a VERY long time and her liver is failing. I have always been on my high horse and told her to stop drinking etc!!! Well, at the start of this year I was so cranky that she was about to die and leave behind 6 children and 6 grandchildren!!! That is when i had my "lightbulb" moment... I am also killing myself with food and I am only 26.Well...that was the start of my journey. I joined Weight Watchers on the 7th of Januray 2008 and I am now losinig all my weight, for me and for my amazing boys who deserve to have their mum here for a VERY long time!!!

This is my journey.......

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

A gain!!!!! So no I am not an 80's girl yet....

VERY disappointed this morning!! I had a gain! Only my second gain in my WW journey. I gained 400 grams, not much I know, but I actually didn't deserve a gain. I have had a pretty good week. I have been over my points a few days, but i have also exercised hard!

I think my previous 2 weeks where i have had a loss and didn't deserve them has caught up with me!! So, I am a little deflated, feeling a little sorry for myself... but it is a new week and hopefully I can see a loss next week.

I was thinking this morning that my only 2 gains have both come at critical times. The first gain was when I was 100.2kg and a loss would have put me under the 100kg mark, and this time when all I needed was a tiny loss to put me into the 80's. ?????

Anyway, I have been amazing, I am healthier and happier so I need to get over this gain and work hard for next week!!!

Well I am off to take Conrad to swimming lessons in a minute. I have to go by myself this week with all three boys as Damien has a late meeting. Wish me luck!!

Mother's Day on the weekend - I am very excitied. It never really meant much to me, but now that I a mum, I LOVE Mother's Day!!! :-)

1 comment:

CinnamonJayne said...

Happy Mother's Day!!! I think you'd definitely fall into the MILF category. ;-)